Hi everyone! Lola here!
Sorry for the lack of posts, but I'm out of ideas. I've already said so much on personal life dreams!
If you have any questions you'd like me to answer on the subject of life dreams/goals, just post below. :)
Great news on my end: I finally found a job! ^^
I'm very lucky to be trilingual, because that's what got me it, really.
I have found a job not far from Switzerland as a hotel receptionist. I'll be speaking a lot in Italian as there are many Italians over there.
For now, I'm doing a trial lasting three weeks. After that, if the people I work for and me are satisfied with the outcome, I'll either stay a bit longer or forever.
I can finally start paying my parents back for hat year at University! :P
Plus, I've been offered a small place to live while I'm there.
It'll be an awesome opportunity for me to make videos, because I find it a lot easier when I'm alone. I'm a lot more productive than I am around my parents.
I'll also be able to play my instuments in peace and concentate on my passions without having anything on my mind that worries me (most of the time, haha).
The only downside is that I won't have the precious computer I use that's equipped with everything I need to edit my Youtube videos and audio!
That's why I'll be saving up for a better computer and new video-editing equipment.
In the meantime, the first week or two, I'll be putting up videos that are being prepared and scheduled to come out as we speak.
For now, I don't know if I'll be staying for more than three weeks for this job. But if I do, I'll try and maybe get a desktop computer instead of a laptop. I'd much prefer it, to be honest and it'd be excellent for making Let's Plays, too! I'd finally be able to create videos like I've always wanted without making my subscribers wait more than a week (or sometimes a few months)!
I'm pretty excited about this job. It's my first ever job and I am very lucky they take beginners with no experience or diplomas (except for the Bachelor degree, which everyone has, haha).
I won't be able to post many blog posts in the next few days, as I'll be quite busy. But I hope to tell you guys about this new experience very soon!
Your turn to share! What was your first job? Was it a good experience? If you haven't had a job yet, what would you like to try out for?
Thanks for reading; keep on dreaming!
~ Lola out!
Wednesday, 13 August 2014
Friday, 8 August 2014
Do You Dare To Dream?
Hi everyone! Lola here!
A dear friend of mine (+Mégane Steiner) sent me a link to a video that is perfect for motivation!
The title's in French, but the video is in English. It's 7 minutes long and is very informative!
It basically sums up how we grow up, what we grow up to believe and teaches you all about over-coming your fears of change!
Feel free to go and watch it. Whenever you feel down, this will make you feel a lot better! :)
Thanks, as always, for your support!
~ Lola out!
A dear friend of mine (+Mégane Steiner) sent me a link to a video that is perfect for motivation!
The title's in French, but the video is in English. It's 7 minutes long and is very informative!
It basically sums up how we grow up, what we grow up to believe and teaches you all about over-coming your fears of change!
Feel free to go and watch it. Whenever you feel down, this will make you feel a lot better! :)
Thanks, as always, for your support!
~ Lola out!
Thursday, 7 August 2014
Dream Updates: Getting More Organised!
Hi everyone! Lola here!
If you follow my Facebook fan page, you'll know that I've dtarted a new daily schedule.
It's a pretty strict schedule and a bit tight, but it's great for getting everything I need to do done!
I wrote it three days ago and started today...
Basically, I get up at 8:00am (something I haven't done in months :P).
Since I usually sleep all morning, I figured it'd be a perfect time to work on my personal projects instead!
Which includes, Youtube videos and publishing a blog post. So I should post every day at the same time (except for Saturdays when I post slightly later). I've also decided to get a bit of exercise in the morning. I don't do it enough and I get tired very quickly whenever I run or do something else that requires effort.
My afternoons will be reserved for job-hunting (while I still don't have one), any important stuff I have to get done and my hobbies. I have one hour of "hobbies" during which I'll either draw, play an instrument, sing, or do anything else I love.
I've even managed to put Facebook into my daily schedule, so as not to get addicted like I used to!
I've dramatically downsized my friends list and I only go on there to post about my projects and talk to my closer friends.
Every day, I post about something different. On Thursdays, I'll post all of the week's posts on my Facebook fan page along with the titles and a few words to describe them.
Which means that's what I'll be doing today!
The end of the day is when I catch up with my Youtube subscriptions. Since I'm subscribed to people who post a lot (some of them post daily), I need to watch their videos regularly. Now I can, without worrying about anything else of importance I was supposed to do that day! Hooray!
Then I'll go to bed at around 10:30pm. Except on Saturdays, because I get up a bit later on Sundays with this schedule.
I tell you, when I wrote down this schedule, I really thought it sounded too unrealistic and perfect... but I've actually managed to do everything I was supposed to do so far! I'm also using this site called Habit RPG, which is awesome! It basically treats life like a game. You set dailies, to-dos and habits. Every time you get something done, you click on what you did and gain experience. You have this little character you can make level up this way and can collect items, pets and mounts. Try it, it really makes you a lot more productive! :P
I hope I can stick to the schedule properly and every day. It's going to help me do so many things I've been wanting to do!
There are a few problems, though (aren't there always?).
My dad is a computer whiz and needs the desktop computer for work. I wasn't able to edit my Youtube footage today because he was already working on the computer. Apparently, I can't be allowed a tiny hour of video-editing while he uses the computer the rest of the entire day (I did propose the arrangement, but he said no). I can't use my laptop because it's not powerful enough to play HD videos and the desktop one is lagging enough with my software, so the laptop would probably explode, haha. I think I"ll just have to schedule my Youtube stuff a little earlier in the day, when he's still in bed.
Also, I don't know when I'll be getting a job, but when I do, it's going to affect my schedule a lot, of course, since I'm currently pretty much free (but dependent of my parents, haha!).
I don't know how long I'll be working, how many days a week... whenI do, I'll have to take some time re-organising everything. I might have to take some stuff off my schedule or reduce the time (including Youtube stuff!), but I hope I can manage something not too full and not be too tired from work to respect the schedule.
Ending this post on a positive note, I will now proceed to start doing the important stuff I was going to do this afternoon!
I thought I'd be done by midday, but I've managed to do all my morning activities already. :P
Your turn to share! What do you think about daily schedules? Do you use one? If so, how would you feel if you stopped using it during a week? If you don't have a schedule, do you feel it could help you accomplish more every day?
Share your story!
Thanks for your support!
~ Lola out!
If you follow my Facebook fan page, you'll know that I've dtarted a new daily schedule.
It's a pretty strict schedule and a bit tight, but it's great for getting everything I need to do done!
I wrote it three days ago and started today...
Basically, I get up at 8:00am (something I haven't done in months :P).
Since I usually sleep all morning, I figured it'd be a perfect time to work on my personal projects instead!
Which includes, Youtube videos and publishing a blog post. So I should post every day at the same time (except for Saturdays when I post slightly later). I've also decided to get a bit of exercise in the morning. I don't do it enough and I get tired very quickly whenever I run or do something else that requires effort.
My afternoons will be reserved for job-hunting (while I still don't have one), any important stuff I have to get done and my hobbies. I have one hour of "hobbies" during which I'll either draw, play an instrument, sing, or do anything else I love.
I've even managed to put Facebook into my daily schedule, so as not to get addicted like I used to!
I've dramatically downsized my friends list and I only go on there to post about my projects and talk to my closer friends.
Every day, I post about something different. On Thursdays, I'll post all of the week's posts on my Facebook fan page along with the titles and a few words to describe them.
Which means that's what I'll be doing today!
The end of the day is when I catch up with my Youtube subscriptions. Since I'm subscribed to people who post a lot (some of them post daily), I need to watch their videos regularly. Now I can, without worrying about anything else of importance I was supposed to do that day! Hooray!
Then I'll go to bed at around 10:30pm. Except on Saturdays, because I get up a bit later on Sundays with this schedule.
I tell you, when I wrote down this schedule, I really thought it sounded too unrealistic and perfect... but I've actually managed to do everything I was supposed to do so far! I'm also using this site called Habit RPG, which is awesome! It basically treats life like a game. You set dailies, to-dos and habits. Every time you get something done, you click on what you did and gain experience. You have this little character you can make level up this way and can collect items, pets and mounts. Try it, it really makes you a lot more productive! :P
I hope I can stick to the schedule properly and every day. It's going to help me do so many things I've been wanting to do!
There are a few problems, though (aren't there always?).
My dad is a computer whiz and needs the desktop computer for work. I wasn't able to edit my Youtube footage today because he was already working on the computer. Apparently, I can't be allowed a tiny hour of video-editing while he uses the computer the rest of the entire day (I did propose the arrangement, but he said no). I can't use my laptop because it's not powerful enough to play HD videos and the desktop one is lagging enough with my software, so the laptop would probably explode, haha. I think I"ll just have to schedule my Youtube stuff a little earlier in the day, when he's still in bed.
Also, I don't know when I'll be getting a job, but when I do, it's going to affect my schedule a lot, of course, since I'm currently pretty much free (but dependent of my parents, haha!).
I don't know how long I'll be working, how many days a week... whenI do, I'll have to take some time re-organising everything. I might have to take some stuff off my schedule or reduce the time (including Youtube stuff!), but I hope I can manage something not too full and not be too tired from work to respect the schedule.
Ending this post on a positive note, I will now proceed to start doing the important stuff I was going to do this afternoon!
I thought I'd be done by midday, but I've managed to do all my morning activities already. :P
Your turn to share! What do you think about daily schedules? Do you use one? If so, how would you feel if you stopped using it during a week? If you don't have a schedule, do you feel it could help you accomplish more every day?
Share your story!
Thanks for your support!
~ Lola out!
Monday, 4 August 2014
When You Feel Like Giving Up...
Hi everyone! Lola here!
Sorry I skip a few days at a time. I didn't have a lot of inspiration for new posts and haven't received any questions to answer (yes, you can still ask something :P). I also don't want to make too many Dream Updates, because I'd just be repeating myself and it's not all that interesting.
But I found something! Actually, I wonder how I never thought of making a post on this subject...
We all have these moments when we feel totally demotivated. Some people, like me, go as far as thinking themselves worthless, a waste of space.
Yeah, that does happen to me... but I know exactly what to do at those times.
Today, I'll be giving you some tips on what to do when you feel like giving up on your dream. I'll use my own situation as an example, but this goes for everyone.
I've learnt different methods to keep calm and carry on...
The Situation
Okay, so let's say you make Youtube videos. You don't make them often, but you do your best. You love making videos. It's how you let out your creativity and it feels good to know you're doing something you find worthwhile (yeah, I did say I'd use myself as an example :P).
Then, something happens... someone tells you your videos are worthless, have no value and that you should quit while you're ahead (okay, this isn't actually true for me, but it's something that could happen).
This is just one example of many that could make you demotivated, of course. What counts is that you suddenly want to give up.
You're a very sensitive person and start to question what you do.
"That person's right," you say. "I'm bad at what I do but I can't do anything else".
And that's it. You've been crushed. You don't know what to do anymore. You have a dream you can't even accomplish because you're bad at it.
Or are you?
The Methods
Okay, so, first of all, if someone does ever tell you what you do is worthless, then get that person out of your life as quick as you can. Or at least ignore their comments. If that person can't find anything to say to actually help you get better, then there's no point in listening to such negative things.
The main thing to do, in this case, is to stay positive and keep away from anything or anyone negative.
Here are some methods I use to help myself get better. Try one. :)
1. Talk to someone. If there's someone out there you trust and are close with, then tell them what happened. Spend some time with them if you can, and get your mind off what just happened.
2. Distract yourself. Whether it be cleaning the house, going shopping, going to the cinema with some friends, or spending time with a close friend or family member, do it. Find a way to distract yourself and calm down.
3. Be aware of what you're good at. Make a list of things you know how to do. Better yet, do this when you're feeling positive. Maybe even write yourself a letter to read when you're feeling down. Don't hesitate to compliment yourself and don't be modest. :) It's important to remember that you have value. Everyone has something they're good at. If you think you don't, you just haven't found it yet. Trust me.
4. Keep going! Don't do like I used to do and sit around wondering what to do with your dream. Keep that dream alive and ask people around you what they think of what you do. If they find something's wrong, ask them what it is exactly and how you could make it better.
Above all, remember that the only person keeping yourself from reaching your dreams is you alone. Don't listen to anyone who's ready to crush you. They're likely jealous or just bored with their lives.
On the other hand, don't be paranoid. Not everyone who tells you you're doing something wrong is having a go a If someone says you're doing something wrong, stay calm. Depending on how they say it, respond well.
Never blame anyone else for a failure. It's normal to fail at times, but it's not the end of the world. It's a waste of time to blame someone else. In that time, you could be working on another project instead or doing research on how to be better at what you do.
Well, I hope this was helpful! I'm sure there are other ways to deal with this problem, but the ones I have stated are the ones I use.
Your turn to share! Tell me what you think about my methods. Do you agree? Do you have any other methods you use to stay positive and keep going? Share your story!
Thanks for reading; keep on dreaming!
Sorry I skip a few days at a time. I didn't have a lot of inspiration for new posts and haven't received any questions to answer (yes, you can still ask something :P). I also don't want to make too many Dream Updates, because I'd just be repeating myself and it's not all that interesting.
But I found something! Actually, I wonder how I never thought of making a post on this subject...
We all have these moments when we feel totally demotivated. Some people, like me, go as far as thinking themselves worthless, a waste of space.
Yeah, that does happen to me... but I know exactly what to do at those times.
Today, I'll be giving you some tips on what to do when you feel like giving up on your dream. I'll use my own situation as an example, but this goes for everyone.
I've learnt different methods to keep calm and carry on...
The Situation
Okay, so let's say you make Youtube videos. You don't make them often, but you do your best. You love making videos. It's how you let out your creativity and it feels good to know you're doing something you find worthwhile (yeah, I did say I'd use myself as an example :P).
Then, something happens... someone tells you your videos are worthless, have no value and that you should quit while you're ahead (okay, this isn't actually true for me, but it's something that could happen).
This is just one example of many that could make you demotivated, of course. What counts is that you suddenly want to give up.
You're a very sensitive person and start to question what you do.
"That person's right," you say. "I'm bad at what I do but I can't do anything else".
And that's it. You've been crushed. You don't know what to do anymore. You have a dream you can't even accomplish because you're bad at it.
Or are you?
The Methods
Okay, so, first of all, if someone does ever tell you what you do is worthless, then get that person out of your life as quick as you can. Or at least ignore their comments. If that person can't find anything to say to actually help you get better, then there's no point in listening to such negative things.
The main thing to do, in this case, is to stay positive and keep away from anything or anyone negative.
Here are some methods I use to help myself get better. Try one. :)
1. Talk to someone. If there's someone out there you trust and are close with, then tell them what happened. Spend some time with them if you can, and get your mind off what just happened.
2. Distract yourself. Whether it be cleaning the house, going shopping, going to the cinema with some friends, or spending time with a close friend or family member, do it. Find a way to distract yourself and calm down.
3. Be aware of what you're good at. Make a list of things you know how to do. Better yet, do this when you're feeling positive. Maybe even write yourself a letter to read when you're feeling down. Don't hesitate to compliment yourself and don't be modest. :) It's important to remember that you have value. Everyone has something they're good at. If you think you don't, you just haven't found it yet. Trust me.
4. Keep going! Don't do like I used to do and sit around wondering what to do with your dream. Keep that dream alive and ask people around you what they think of what you do. If they find something's wrong, ask them what it is exactly and how you could make it better.
Above all, remember that the only person keeping yourself from reaching your dreams is you alone. Don't listen to anyone who's ready to crush you. They're likely jealous or just bored with their lives.
On the other hand, don't be paranoid. Not everyone who tells you you're doing something wrong is having a go a If someone says you're doing something wrong, stay calm. Depending on how they say it, respond well.
Never blame anyone else for a failure. It's normal to fail at times, but it's not the end of the world. It's a waste of time to blame someone else. In that time, you could be working on another project instead or doing research on how to be better at what you do.
Well, I hope this was helpful! I'm sure there are other ways to deal with this problem, but the ones I have stated are the ones I use.
Your turn to share! Tell me what you think about my methods. Do you agree? Do you have any other methods you use to stay positive and keep going? Share your story!
Thanks for reading; keep on dreaming!
Thursday, 31 July 2014
Dream Updates: My First Job..?
Hi everyone! Lola here!
I thought about making a Dreams Update post yesterday, but I decided to wait until today for a particular reason (I promise I didn't forget :P).
I know you guys prefer my posts where I give tips, but I don't have many ideas. I've already said a lot of stuff in my older posts. That's why it would be a great idea if you guys could ask me questions so I can make posts featuring them (and crediting you, if you want me to, of course).
Go ahead and ask a question in the comments if you have one. ^^
So...
Three days ago, I went job-hunting. I gave resumes to McDonald's restaurants and hotels. I really hoped I'd get called back at a hotel. It would be a great place to meet and interact with lots of foreign people!
And it happened!
I got called back by a hotel yesterday and went to see the manager. I'll be getting another call today to see if I get the job I wanted, but I mustn't get high hopes. There's a chance they might not actually need me anymore.
For now, I'm sitting here with my phone next to me, just waiting for that call. I'm not going to allow myself to leave that phone for even a minute! I can't miss this call.
I'll keep you guys updated on that! In the meantime...
Your turn to share! What was your first job? Did you enjoy it? If you haven't had a job yet, what would you like to try out for?
Comment below with your story and give this blog a +1 if you enjoy it! ^^
Thanks for reading; keep on dreaming!
~ Lola out!
I thought about making a Dreams Update post yesterday, but I decided to wait until today for a particular reason (I promise I didn't forget :P).
I know you guys prefer my posts where I give tips, but I don't have many ideas. I've already said a lot of stuff in my older posts. That's why it would be a great idea if you guys could ask me questions so I can make posts featuring them (and crediting you, if you want me to, of course).
Go ahead and ask a question in the comments if you have one. ^^
So...
Three days ago, I went job-hunting. I gave resumes to McDonald's restaurants and hotels. I really hoped I'd get called back at a hotel. It would be a great place to meet and interact with lots of foreign people!
And it happened!
I got called back by a hotel yesterday and went to see the manager. I'll be getting another call today to see if I get the job I wanted, but I mustn't get high hopes. There's a chance they might not actually need me anymore.
For now, I'm sitting here with my phone next to me, just waiting for that call. I'm not going to allow myself to leave that phone for even a minute! I can't miss this call.
I'll keep you guys updated on that! In the meantime...
Your turn to share! What was your first job? Did you enjoy it? If you haven't had a job yet, what would you like to try out for?
Comment below with your story and give this blog a +1 if you enjoy it! ^^
Thanks for reading; keep on dreaming!
~ Lola out!
Tuesday, 29 July 2014
When it comes to inspiration and motivation, do your friends help you and which people do you look up to alot?
Hi everyone! Lola here!
Sorry for my recent absence, I've been looking for jobs!
Anyway, I've received another question and will be answering it in this post!
But before I do that, I'd like to inform you guys that I've opened up my Facebook account again! I'll be logged in on Saturdays, but purely for promotion (type in "Lola Ferricks" to find my profile, page and group!).
Also, if you have any questions or something you'd like me to help you with, to help with your life goals, don't hesitate to ask. ^^
Here we go!
Another interesting question asked by +Danny Jaggers.
Like everyone else, I can get inspired, motivated or completely crushed by people around me. That's what being human is all about! Living in solidarity or in an individualist society... like ours! :')
Anyway.
It's always inspiring to hear about projects my friends do, especially if they're in similar fields to mine. If they're very good at it, it can make me motivated, because if they can do it, why couldn't I?
I find it's one of the reasons (amidst lots of others) why you should try and find the best entourage in your everyday life. One person can make you feel either inspired or sh***y for the rest of the day (or week, or month... or year... or lifetime). ._.
As a child, I was easily inspired by what I saw on TV or friends around me.
For example, I wrote stories a lot. One day I saw a Simpsons episode where Marge decides to write a book. It inspired me so much I started to write even more!
I like to look at the technical side of artists. It makes me admire their work even more! I do that with celebrities, too (although, at times, there's nothing there to actually admire). It reminds me how much their work needs appreciating, because of all the effort put into it. This is how I get inspired.
Here's a list of well-known people who have inspired me in my recent dreams:
There are others, but these are all the people I want to meet and take lessons with and pay them in hugs. I love them all!
Your turn to share! Are you easily inspired? What do you do to motivate yourself? Any big influences? Which ones?
Thanks for reading; keep on dreaming!
~ Lola out!
Sorry for my recent absence, I've been looking for jobs!
Anyway, I've received another question and will be answering it in this post!
But before I do that, I'd like to inform you guys that I've opened up my Facebook account again! I'll be logged in on Saturdays, but purely for promotion (type in "Lola Ferricks" to find my profile, page and group!).
Also, if you have any questions or something you'd like me to help you with, to help with your life goals, don't hesitate to ask. ^^
Here we go!
Another interesting question asked by +Danny Jaggers.
Like everyone else, I can get inspired, motivated or completely crushed by people around me. That's what being human is all about! Living in solidarity or in an individualist society... like ours! :')
Anyway.
It's always inspiring to hear about projects my friends do, especially if they're in similar fields to mine. If they're very good at it, it can make me motivated, because if they can do it, why couldn't I?
I find it's one of the reasons (amidst lots of others) why you should try and find the best entourage in your everyday life. One person can make you feel either inspired or sh***y for the rest of the day (or week, or month... or year... or lifetime). ._.
As a child, I was easily inspired by what I saw on TV or friends around me.
For example, I wrote stories a lot. One day I saw a Simpsons episode where Marge decides to write a book. It inspired me so much I started to write even more!
I like to look at the technical side of artists. It makes me admire their work even more! I do that with celebrities, too (although, at times, there's nothing there to actually admire). It reminds me how much their work needs appreciating, because of all the effort put into it. This is how I get inspired.
Here's a list of well-known people who have inspired me in my recent dreams:
- Michael Jackson (creating music)
- Jennifer Lawrence (acting)
- David Tennant (acting, voice-over work and Scottish sex appeal)
- James Arnold Taylor (voice-over work)
- Benedict Cumberbatch (acting)
- Martin Freeman (acting)
- Catherine Tate (acting)
- Ratchet and Clank (not a person, but dramatically changed my drawing style)
- PewDiePie (Youtube videos)
- Gad Elmaleh (comedy)
- Bill Hicks (comedy and not giving a flying f*** about anything)
- George Carlin (comedy and questioning life)
- Natsuki Takaya (story-writing and drawing) -> author of the manga Fruits Basket
There are others, but these are all the people I want to meet and take lessons with and pay them in hugs. I love them all!
Your turn to share! Are you easily inspired? What do you do to motivate yourself? Any big influences? Which ones?
Thanks for reading; keep on dreaming!
~ Lola out!
Friday, 25 July 2014
Dream Updates: Decisions, decisions...
Hi everyone! Lola here!
I was supposed to make a post based on another question I received, but I've decided to post a dream update today. Stuff keeps happening and this blog helps me see things more clearly.
But I'm still accepting questions about dreams/goals, so write one down in the comments, if you have one (if you'd like tips or are just curious about something). ^^
So...
If you didn't know, my mum was in Italy for the last two weeks, and she came back last night.
This morning, I got up at 11:30am and made my way to the kitchen to make myself some coffee.
Now, my mum isn't really one to say "good morning" and talk about things calmly. Like me, she's always stressed, nervous... but more so. And it shows.
She started by saying she didn't want to argue. Then she kind of shouted the rest.
She told me nothing new, really. I'm a spoilt brat and I need to get a job to find out how tough life can really get.
I'm not saying she's wrong. I know I've been spoiled as a child and teenager. I also know that I've lead a pretty comfortable life, nearly always getting what I wanted, but also accepting when I couldn't receive something I wanted, but that was rare. That's something my dad taught me as I grew up. He might have got me lots of material, but I still grew up with limits, keeping me from being completely spoiled and thinking the world owed me everything.
Anyway, I got a bit upset after she spoke to me. Firt of all, I don't like being lectured right after I get up, I have a short temper in the morning, haha.
But there's something she said that got me confused, and then I suddenly realized something...
She told me that I had to decide, to get a Summer job and then see if I'll start studying again.
Well, that's odd. My dad said I wouldn't get another chance, and now my mum's telling me I might go back to Uni.
After a few minutes thinking this over in my room, I suddenly thought: "Hold on. This is my future. I should know if I'm ready to study again or if I want to take a job. So why am I waiting for my parents to decide for me?"
That's my problem. I'm still very dependent of my parents.
For example, while my mum was in Italy, I had her car all for myself. I decided I wanted to see a friend, but (get this) I actually asked my dad for permission to go out.
Did I mention I'm 19 years old with a driving licence and car (while she was away)?
Anyway, that shows how much I listen to my parents and take their word for gospel. I grew up like that, but this shows that I am indeed still pretty immature, as I said in a previous post, because I can't seem to take my own decisions, and wait for my parents to do that for me.
So, what am I going to do?
Well, I've got until September to decide. My mum said she's going to help me find a job, so I'll go for that, for now. If I get to start something some time in August, it might help me make up my mind. Am I up for entering adult life and do what I can with my Baccalauréat (A Levels) and three languages? Or do I prefer getting a diploma first and getting a higher quality job?
I guess the answer must be easy to see, for you. The latter would, of course, be a better solution But, what if it's just like last year? What if I just want to do something else to do with art again, during the year, and blow the whole thing?
Hah. Me and my free will. Come on, Lola. Free will is for idiots who question things too much. There's no place in this world for those people, so don't be one of them
I have to stop over-thinking. I have to stop trying to be free. I must surrender to the money system and become just another work-to-death chump.
I honestly have no idea what I want to do. Suddenly, I realize how hard it is to decide something for myself. Start working without a diploma and try my best? Or go back to University and risk blowing it again?
Let's just see how the next few days go...
Your turn to share! Have you ever had to make any hard decisions in your life? Did you regret it or not? Share your story below. :3
Thanks for reading; keep on dreaming!
~ Lola out!
I was supposed to make a post based on another question I received, but I've decided to post a dream update today. Stuff keeps happening and this blog helps me see things more clearly.
But I'm still accepting questions about dreams/goals, so write one down in the comments, if you have one (if you'd like tips or are just curious about something). ^^
So...
If you didn't know, my mum was in Italy for the last two weeks, and she came back last night.
This morning, I got up at 11:30am and made my way to the kitchen to make myself some coffee.
Now, my mum isn't really one to say "good morning" and talk about things calmly. Like me, she's always stressed, nervous... but more so. And it shows.
She started by saying she didn't want to argue. Then she kind of shouted the rest.
She told me nothing new, really. I'm a spoilt brat and I need to get a job to find out how tough life can really get.
I'm not saying she's wrong. I know I've been spoiled as a child and teenager. I also know that I've lead a pretty comfortable life, nearly always getting what I wanted, but also accepting when I couldn't receive something I wanted, but that was rare. That's something my dad taught me as I grew up. He might have got me lots of material, but I still grew up with limits, keeping me from being completely spoiled and thinking the world owed me everything.
Anyway, I got a bit upset after she spoke to me. Firt of all, I don't like being lectured right after I get up, I have a short temper in the morning, haha.
But there's something she said that got me confused, and then I suddenly realized something...
She told me that I had to decide, to get a Summer job and then see if I'll start studying again.
Well, that's odd. My dad said I wouldn't get another chance, and now my mum's telling me I might go back to Uni.
After a few minutes thinking this over in my room, I suddenly thought: "Hold on. This is my future. I should know if I'm ready to study again or if I want to take a job. So why am I waiting for my parents to decide for me?"
That's my problem. I'm still very dependent of my parents.
For example, while my mum was in Italy, I had her car all for myself. I decided I wanted to see a friend, but (get this) I actually asked my dad for permission to go out.
Did I mention I'm 19 years old with a driving licence and car (while she was away)?
Anyway, that shows how much I listen to my parents and take their word for gospel. I grew up like that, but this shows that I am indeed still pretty immature, as I said in a previous post, because I can't seem to take my own decisions, and wait for my parents to do that for me.
So, what am I going to do?
Well, I've got until September to decide. My mum said she's going to help me find a job, so I'll go for that, for now. If I get to start something some time in August, it might help me make up my mind. Am I up for entering adult life and do what I can with my Baccalauréat (A Levels) and three languages? Or do I prefer getting a diploma first and getting a higher quality job?
I guess the answer must be easy to see, for you. The latter would, of course, be a better solution But, what if it's just like last year? What if I just want to do something else to do with art again, during the year, and blow the whole thing?
Hah. Me and my free will. Come on, Lola. Free will is for idiots who question things too much. There's no place in this world for those people, so don't be one of them
I have to stop over-thinking. I have to stop trying to be free. I must surrender to the money system and become just another work-to-death chump.
I honestly have no idea what I want to do. Suddenly, I realize how hard it is to decide something for myself. Start working without a diploma and try my best? Or go back to University and risk blowing it again?
Let's just see how the next few days go...
Your turn to share! Have you ever had to make any hard decisions in your life? Did you regret it or not? Share your story below. :3
Thanks for reading; keep on dreaming!
~ Lola out!
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